resurrection

i should be sleeping.  my eyes are burning and the lids are drooping, but i suddenly had the urge to write.  i'm resurrecting my blog.  fantastic funk lives again!  i doubt anyone will read it.  i don't know how often i'll write, or if i really have anything to say, but i need to start writing again and this is where i feel like giving it a go.  it's for me this time, not for the acknowledgement of others, though i don't mind kind and supportive comments if people feel inclined to leave such.

life has been an interesting...what? adventure?  sure, that works.  i've had a good year and a bad year.  graduation, vacations, movings about...friendships, family; loss, loneliness; attempts and failures, successes, griefs, joys...that's life, right?  life is up and down, and sometimes upside-down.  it's spun me until i couldn't stand, it's bored me until i couldn't sit still, it's tickled me till i cried from giggles, it's turned me topsy, chewed me up and spit me out, and ignored me completely.  that's the way of things. 

since graduation...well, maybe before then...maybe since last year sometime, i've been hiding out, becoming more and more recluse and solitary.  i've been recovering, searching, avoiding; attempting to convince myself that i'm happiest alone.  of course that's a big fat lie, but i don't have many options sometimes (especially with the Artist married now and other friends dispersed to various corners of the city, away...too far away).  i'm doing the best i can, which, admittedly, isn't so very good sometimes, but it's all i can do so it's good enough. 

i love working at seagull book!  i love books, and i love my coworkers.  i don't always love the customers, or certain aspects of the job, but that's to be expected in any employment.

i love my nieces and nephews!  they are some of the greatest kids i've ever met (i know i'm a little bias, but i'm not the only person who says they are pretty great).

i love reading and music and movies. 

i love the time i do get to spend with friends.  now and then it's nearly like old times at the height of my sociality.

i love that autumn is here and the weather is turning cold.  i love that winter is coming...mainly because it means my dear uncle will be coming to spend some time with us during Christmas!

 i have some things to figure out and some decisions to make, but i'm not in any huge hurry.  i just need to take life a day at a time and not put so much weight into every decision.  and i need to start getting out there and being more social again.

...and i need to write more.  i need to have more confidence in my writing.  it's what i love so i need to just do it!