Boston

as you may have noticed, i've been a little depressed and one-track-minded recently. i want love, my own family, and i want it now! well, that's not happening, and only God knows if/when it will. so i'm working on finding other reasons for which to live and work. i've never had career ambitions, i've never seen myself as a business ladder climber or anything like that. i'm terrible at working for money, i'd rather do something i enjoy for minimum wage than something i hate for a fortune. actually, in an ideal world i'd like to be paid well enough for doing something i enjoy, but we do not live in the kind of world that pays well for the kinds of things i like to do (like working in a bookstore).  oh well. i like the freedom and flexibility of working retail, but i'm tired of being paid so poorly for everything i have to do and put up with. and i really don't like the severe cut in hours that comes during spring and summer months. my current hope is that i can find a second part time job, doing what doesn't really matter much, so i can work both part time jobs at least until September. 

i found something to live for, at least through September.  two of my very best single gir friends and i bought tickets tonight to fly to Boston for a few days in September! i have never been on a vacation with friends before and i am super excited! my tax return deposited in my account yesterday so i have the money for the plane tickets, and now i just need to discipline myself to save every possible penny to pay for my share of the hotel and gas money...and food and sightseeing once we're there. i'll work it out. i'm actively searching for a second job now and i'm putting as much positive energy as i can muster into finding the right fit. if anyone reading this has any info about a part time job you think i might be interested in, please send it my way. thanks! oh, or if you've been to Boston, let me know what are the must-see attractions!