i cannot find the way

life is so hard sometimes. making decisions, living with decisions that have been made, making mistakes and trying to clean up and learn from the mess. i've not been in the best mood recently. it's been a difficult couple of months. this time of year is always rough for me...but for some reason this year feels harder. i've made some big, dumb mistakes and i'm paying for them right now. i have some  decisions i've been avoiding, and i'm paying for that too. my stress level is nearing the stars, and i may be headed for a breakdown. not sure. i need some help, but as usual, i'm not sure where to turn. i just don't know what to do.